Sometimes I feel like I am looking through a magnifying glass searching for strength to keep going. As of right now I am on break from college. I don’t start back until the 16th but I can already feel the dread of the cold and commuting weighing on my mind.
For me though finding strength to be what the world wants to see is often a battle of whether I can bear to be fake for the sake of others. Oftentimes when making friends in college I find myself being fake or distant towards others as to avoid pity or any of the cliche advice or sayings that come along with admitting that I was born with a genetic condition that won’t ever “get better soon”.
So a solution then? Well I have found that while using my magnifying glass I am able to see there are few people that can see right through me and know something is wrong. Like i am in pain or my hip hurts because of the pressure changes and rain coming in. I realized it is possible to be real and be understood by those who do not deal with such ailments as mine.
I made a friend this year that suffers from a genetic bone disease. Her and I discussed our pains, injuries, and everything. It’s an incredible feeling when you find someone who..well, gets it! She helped me learned to be more trusting of others with my problems. While this is not a guarantee for every person you meet or make friends with. Sometimes people will surprise you when you give them the chance to prove it.